The Decision and Process to Get There

Three years ago I went to a seminar to checkout the lap band procedure and see if it was was something that I wanted to do and something that we could even afford.  after sitting through the lecture and hearing all the questions and answers I decided that I wanted to pursue it.  I had finally come to a point in my life where I was tired of the dieting and exercising with no to little results and the constant feeling of hunger when I was dieting and the shame I had when I would finally give in and eat something I wanted. 

I did a lot of searching inside myself to find out why I was over weight, what was my trigger and how I could overcome it.  I came to the conclusion that I was addicted to the feeling of being full, it didn't matter if I was eating french fries and shakes or salad and carrots, I wanted that full feeling.  I don't mean the "oh I'm satisfied I could stop here and be good" feeling; I mean the "oh I need to unbuckle my pants because I think I may explode" feeling.  Granted I had my loves, chocolate, key lime pie and just about any cheesecake (okay so I'm a little bit of a sugar junky)!  My dad (who has had the lap band of three years now) told me in a recent conversation that my relationship with food will change FOREVER.  I really thought about that statement and I came to the conclusion that my relationship with food obviously isn't working for me now so it needs to change, whether I like it or not. 

So, After all this I spoke with my husband, and though he was reluctant, he supported my decision.  Now to get the insurance to help----WRONG!  They had a part in our insurance that refused ANY payment for ANY weight loss treatment, even a nutritionist.  I was shocked being that my husbands company was so pro-healthy living.  So the idea was scratched for the time being and I went back to trying to lose my weight.

Then during my last pregnancy my husband and I were looking over our upcoming finances for the year and I told him that I thought that we had the money to have the surgery and I wanted to look into it after I had baby #2.  About a week after delivering my precious bundle of joy I started looking into, I took the steps needed and Had my first consultation with the doctor the end of July.  I then had x-rays done and was told when to start my pre-op diet (which is so wrong lol) to shrink the liver and I started that the end of last week, though it has been VERY VERY difficult.  I had my pre-op appointment today and I have surgery the end of next week!